Live Like You’re Dying
I’ve seen a lot of posts recently on Facebook about how to live your life to the fullest, asking how I would live if I knew I only had a short time left, etc etc. I visited these questions deeply for the first time in 1998 when my life changed dramatically within the space of a week and it has shaped my life so much since, though that message is coming through in a louder way again right now for me.
So … on an impulse, I booked this a couple of days ago:
I am SO excited! I have wanted to go on one for forever and just thought I’d go for it in the spirit of living fully! Yes, I am afraid of heights, but I’m pretty sure, statistically, I’m better off up there than crossing the road.
All Or Nothing
I have realized, that when I do stuff, it *is* all or nothing and y’know .. that’s who I am and it’s how I like it. (My astrological reading with Terri Plewa actually showed why that is to a T )
In the spirit of all of this, I was also inspired to look up another exciting fully alive moment from my past, and found out that the bungee jump I did just over a decade ago, that resulted in two weeks of ego death and more joy than I can describe, was off of the highest commercially operating bungy bridge in the world. Wow, talk about how to live your life to the fullest!
Reading that made me laugh really hard .. of course it was Why would I go for anything less, even on an impulse, even without consciously knowing how extreme it was.
I had just left my partner of 6.5 years, been away to get my head clear on what had been planned as a romantic getaway, had been told by him by phone that he’d kill himself if I didn’t come back and that my flat had been broken into while I was away .. and had found out the day before leaving for home that my mother had an aneurysm suddenly pop in her brain and was in a coma (we switched the machines off a few days later – big beautiful story for another time).
So, I did what anyone would do .. I saw the bungy jump billboard at the entrance to their business as I was driving home from the getaway, felt I must go do it and turned off the road .. and within 30 or 40 minutes, was perched on the edge of a 216m drop over a dry river bed with an elastic band tied around my ankles.
It was one of the best things I ever did!
My reptilian brained ego self had no concept of the elastic band at all and so, as I dropped, it prepared me for death .. and released all of my baggage .. in a moment. A white out, followed by BLISS.
LIGHT as a feather
and then ..
.. I bounced ..
.. and dropped ..
.. and bounced .. and dropped again .. coming to rest as a new woman
Later when I stopped off at an unusual tourist spot, run by true hippies from the 60s (a faery sanctuary at the foot of a mountain range) .. and hung out in the peace and beauty for a while, the owner came up to chat with me with an increasingly curious look on his face.
Eventually, he asked me if I was tripping .. he was sure, from my dilated pupils and blissful demeanour, that I had taken LSD.
It really made me laugh.
That peaceful feeling and acceptance of all that is .. of pure love lasted for around 2 weeks.
It’s been so wonderful to revisit the memory!
But more than that .. it’s great to feel FULLY ALIVE! I know I don’t need moments like jumping off a bridge, or floating in a peaceful sky across the land that I’ve made my home for the past 10 years to feel it. That I do find those moments regularly now in my everyday magic .. but .. they are oh.so.good for raising the bar every once in a while.
How are you raising the bar in your life?? What tips do you have on how to live your life to the fullest??
I’d really love to know .. leave your comments below.